Motherfuck, why the fuck did this fucking HAPPEN??!!? AGAIN!! That is IT! I give UP on this STUPID STUPID STUPID fucking app "Notes"!! Although I cannot delete it because it is a Factory Settings app or WHATEVER THE FUCK, I AM SO FUCKING PISSED OFF NOW!!!
No no no, I am not trying to create drama and I am so fricking aware of the bullshit contents of my past posts here...and I a, not creating a lie post where I freak out becauseI reallynever did anything... OMG IF YOU THINK THAT FUCK YOU THEN!!
But anywho, HOLY FRICKING SHIT. Remember "The Royals Of Ancient Times" my first book ever (my first was in third grade but I don't count it cos we were all forced to write Reindeer stories in my class...), and my mom came in my room for dinner, and so my hands got all shaky and sweaty because I was still typing it up on my iPod (all I had back then, so the screen was teensy weensy and so not like this huge-compared iPad Mini screen I am using to type this), and I didn't want for her to see any of what Iwas writing (I remember precisely: I was sitting on my chair for my piano in my room, at the corner by my closet {just check my FB or something, cos all my pictures are in my room, i guess} and the clothes basket et cetera, and she walked riht up to me and I thought she looked down at the screen and I was all like: HOLY CRAP OH CRAP OH SHIT ASS MOTHERFUCKER NOOOOOOO!!!!!!~ because, yes I will admit it, I actually have had a really dirty mind since I was ten, but held back until Iwas thirteen because that's when the people around me I thought would be the same {disappointment... >.< and MAJOR FAIL}, but anyways, THE BOOK HAD A LOT OF DETAILED INNAPROPRIATE CONTENT {sex scenes of a real whore that was basically me but her name was "Bleu Crystal Von Moonlight" {VAMPIRE BOOK, TOTALLY UNLIKE TWILIGHT BECAUSE I MADE UP THE FACTS OF THEM AND YEAH...NO SPRAKLES!!} until she got married to um... I think it was Shadow? I well.. then it was just "Blue Crystal Moon", and yes, the whole book was based on the royalty of other countries so long ago it was unsaid ever, the date, and the secrets of the teen princess/princesses and kingdoms them... DAMN IT WAS SO INTRIGUING!! Sorry... Oh! And when I wrote the book, some of the things I wrote happened in my near future... it was so fucking creepy...}} and VERY DETAILED DEATH SCENES et cetera....and in real life, I say that naked people are gross, and saying people or their voice is "sexy" is so nasty {btw, my mom gets annoyed I say the word "nasty" because that was always my dad's signiture word, and you know the history in my family with him, most of it that Iknow, so yes..}, and yup.. So if she saw that, I would never recover and I would YES MOST LIKELY have taken a bread knife to myself {Don't ask; my only explanation for now is: It was what I would think a lot was using our bread knife, cos my mom had started letting me cut the french bread we would get, with the bread knife, for this haha "French Toast" recipe I got from my Nintendo game "Gourmet Chef", amd erm...yeah..}. And believe me, the only other person I know was my Ojibwe Language teacher from 1st-5th grades that was like this also, but I hate the sight of blood {Wonderful being a female, hm? XDDD Don't laugh, males. YOU HAVE NO IDEA.})
Well *cough* that day, when she was still looming over me (to this day I still do not trust when she says "No, I never look at your stuff." because of that), I was shaking and quickly tried closign out of it before I locked my screen/shut the screen off, and the big red delete button (literal**) was there and my finger just hit it and yes I'm saying these details because it was such a dramatic moment I can never forget, and I searched for it rushing, and she was still standign there, and... and it was never there again. DDDD,:
And for some reason, I did not get mad at all after that... Okay, that's lieing.
Truth is, after I turned the screen off, I threw my iPod down (okay, did not throw it, but dropped it on the seat), and I THINK that I stood up and was going to punch my mom SO HARD but she stepped back and put up her arm and said to me like a dog (as always..), "No. ..No. ..No." when I tried... Tsk.
Well, another truth is that it takes a lot for me to get physically mean, and to start spelling out swear words for my own sake, in real life. But my mom and sister get so past that, almost every day, and then my sister mocks me, and then my mom laughs and I get mad and then she says "No, but it's so cute. You said 'bowl'. Say 'bull' Naomi. Not 'bowl'." And I get so pissed, also because of their picking at my skin, but because of bullshit from throughout my whole life (btw, I hate spelling long words sometimes when I am really angry, so I say "bull" for "bullshit" and every FUCKING time she brings up "you say bowwwwllllll, No-me-moo-moo." {that's one of the many variations of my family-only nickname: Nomü/No-Moo. : And btw, NEVER CALL ME THAT, because it sounds so baby-ish, and first off everyone knows already from DC&D but I hate babies, and second it is SO ANNOYING!!!}). Nad my dad has MAJOR MAJOR MAJORanger problems, and my sister got it the worst, of us three children of him, and she just at dinner yesterday hit me in the head and Iseriously felt like I was going to black out, because she hit a certain spot REALLY hard, and I remember my eyes tearing up, but I looked away and ate a piece of sourdough bread instead... But so I sometimes snap, but that never happens but with them... Even my posts about, like the last one, it really was not a big deal... So I pointed it towards multiple people, in my mind, when I wrote the end part.
ANYWAYS I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT MY ORIGINAL FREAKOUT BUT HERE IT IS.
You know my book "In The Shadows" which I have on Wattpad, and is my first public book?? Well...erm... I just saw—and I think this just happened because on Notes on my iPad there is always one already up, and I saw one full of text but the next second it was blank for some fuckin' reason—that there is no place, not on my iCloud, not on my iPod, not ANYWHERE!!, is the end part I have been working on for weeks (like since before Kieran's birthday in February) andI was just going to write in it...
Oh my gosh, I am making myself pissed again *starts to involuntarily laugh through the anger*, AHHH SORRY FOR THE LONG ASS POST, and shyaw... :D
Ciao peo-pahls!!!,
ALWAYS LAUGH THROUGH THHE PAIN, LIKE ME. Even if you are in some life threatening position or stuation, if you know you are going to die, or just so you never develop anger problems (if you are just mad like me), just do it. And if you are too scared... if you don't have a camera on you, and the life threatening _person/thing_ is not in your presence, (in the not like me, situation) just so they do not think you are enjoying it...(I have some experience I would not like to talk about, of my own... But maybe someday, I'll tell you... it is not as graphic as Imake it up to be sounding like.) at least SMILE. Because, you are not a bitch or whore or anything like that for being in your current situation. In lots of circumstances you are a wonderful, good person who has something horrible going on or happening to you. And I said "lots of circumstances" because in some cases, e person was actually a horrible bullying asshole that everyone from (I dunno) highschool?, would want them to die, but not really (just metaphorically speaking, or whatever..). And that may be why—ANY FUCKING WAY.
I try to end a post, look what happens to me...=^ *sigh* Another long ass paragraph...
I AM SUCH A BLOGGER. LIKE, DAYUM BROTHA...!
^^ Oh and I realize, at I called Halfschool by his first name, BUT WHO CARES, I CANT HELP IT, he's just so fuckin' CUTE AS F, and yuppeddidoodaa (-prolli da longest word I have ever made up, and ever will...-), btw, I think he likes me secretly, like Anaya suggested...cos um..... well.. I read that English men (OMG AM I REALLY SAYING THIS RIGHT NOW) 75% think they can flirt and know when a girl is flirting with them, but really like only 20-some% actually can... and um... heehee...(Halfschool thout**) yeaaaaahhhh... xD After all I said in this post, everyone must look at me differently and think that I am always thinking about gross shit, eh? Damn... NOT MY INTENTION, so fuck... heheheh..ok, that tiem I did. The word 'fuck' has a reputation.
.......Shall I die for today????
YESSSSSSSSSSSSS...!!!!
*problem with loading* *crash* *secret hidden message is shown*
TheFearless1: Ooooh...! =D
Me: :/
LE MESSAGE: I have listened to this song for the past few days (Ok, IN MY MIND after looking up the lyrics... *rolls eyes*) when I wake up, and seriously, it starts your day to a great start, and then I think about it when I go to bed (go to sleep) and no matter the crap of the other sequences of the day, I CAN ALWAYS REMEMBER TO SMILE AND LAUGH AT MY STUPID, UNLOVED SELF, AFTERWARDS!!! ^O^
So yeah, ummm.... Play this video, and have a great day, everyone!!! [I hope I find a good video, now that I just said this all... O_O][FYI: Picture on post is sloppy and kind of quirky versions of mah handwritin', and it was from on this new app I found that is for notes..but I just like to write on the screen, my handwriting... hahah... MUAHAHAHAHAHAAA *booming laughter, like thunder and lightning*... Okay, *pippy voice* just kidding! :DD I was listening to songs when I wrote it so yuppers and erm, yeah.... -_- some is awkward because it was a sample they now deleted automatically, and I just thought of what I really wanted to say to someone.... heh. IF you can read it. *giggling laughter*],
Nom~ •••
No no no, I am not trying to create drama and I am so fricking aware of the bullshit contents of my past posts here...and I a, not creating a lie post where I freak out becauseI reallynever did anything... OMG IF YOU THINK THAT FUCK YOU THEN!!
But anywho, HOLY FRICKING SHIT. Remember "The Royals Of Ancient Times" my first book ever (my first was in third grade but I don't count it cos we were all forced to write Reindeer stories in my class...), and my mom came in my room for dinner, and so my hands got all shaky and sweaty because I was still typing it up on my iPod (all I had back then, so the screen was teensy weensy and so not like this huge-compared iPad Mini screen I am using to type this), and I didn't want for her to see any of what Iwas writing (I remember precisely: I was sitting on my chair for my piano in my room, at the corner by my closet {just check my FB or something, cos all my pictures are in my room, i guess} and the clothes basket et cetera, and she walked riht up to me and I thought she looked down at the screen and I was all like: HOLY CRAP OH CRAP OH SHIT ASS MOTHERFUCKER NOOOOOOO!!!!!!~ because, yes I will admit it, I actually have had a really dirty mind since I was ten, but held back until Iwas thirteen because that's when the people around me I thought would be the same {disappointment... >.< and MAJOR FAIL}, but anyways, THE BOOK HAD A LOT OF DETAILED INNAPROPRIATE CONTENT {sex scenes of a real whore that was basically me but her name was "Bleu Crystal Von Moonlight" {VAMPIRE BOOK, TOTALLY UNLIKE TWILIGHT BECAUSE I MADE UP THE FACTS OF THEM AND YEAH...NO SPRAKLES!!} until she got married to um... I think it was Shadow? I well.. then it was just "Blue Crystal Moon", and yes, the whole book was based on the royalty of other countries so long ago it was unsaid ever, the date, and the secrets of the teen princess/princesses and kingdoms them... DAMN IT WAS SO INTRIGUING!! Sorry... Oh! And when I wrote the book, some of the things I wrote happened in my near future... it was so fucking creepy...}} and VERY DETAILED DEATH SCENES et cetera....and in real life, I say that naked people are gross, and saying people or their voice is "sexy" is so nasty {btw, my mom gets annoyed I say the word "nasty" because that was always my dad's signiture word, and you know the history in my family with him, most of it that Iknow, so yes..}, and yup.. So if she saw that, I would never recover and I would YES MOST LIKELY have taken a bread knife to myself {Don't ask; my only explanation for now is: It was what I would think a lot was using our bread knife, cos my mom had started letting me cut the french bread we would get, with the bread knife, for this haha "French Toast" recipe I got from my Nintendo game "Gourmet Chef", amd erm...yeah..}. And believe me, the only other person I know was my Ojibwe Language teacher from 1st-5th grades that was like this also, but I hate the sight of blood {Wonderful being a female, hm? XDDD Don't laugh, males. YOU HAVE NO IDEA.})
Well *cough* that day, when she was still looming over me (to this day I still do not trust when she says "No, I never look at your stuff." because of that), I was shaking and quickly tried closign out of it before I locked my screen/shut the screen off, and the big red delete button (literal**) was there and my finger just hit it and yes I'm saying these details because it was such a dramatic moment I can never forget, and I searched for it rushing, and she was still standign there, and... and it was never there again. DDDD,:
And for some reason, I did not get mad at all after that... Okay, that's lieing.
Truth is, after I turned the screen off, I threw my iPod down (okay, did not throw it, but dropped it on the seat), and I THINK that I stood up and was going to punch my mom SO HARD but she stepped back and put up her arm and said to me like a dog (as always..), "No. ..No. ..No." when I tried... Tsk.
Well, another truth is that it takes a lot for me to get physically mean, and to start spelling out swear words for my own sake, in real life. But my mom and sister get so past that, almost every day, and then my sister mocks me, and then my mom laughs and I get mad and then she says "No, but it's so cute. You said 'bowl'. Say 'bull' Naomi. Not 'bowl'." And I get so pissed, also because of their picking at my skin, but because of bullshit from throughout my whole life (btw, I hate spelling long words sometimes when I am really angry, so I say "bull" for "bullshit" and every FUCKING time she brings up "you say bowwwwllllll, No-me-moo-moo." {that's one of the many variations of my family-only nickname: Nomü/No-Moo. : And btw, NEVER CALL ME THAT, because it sounds so baby-ish, and first off everyone knows already from DC&D but I hate babies, and second it is SO ANNOYING!!!}). Nad my dad has MAJOR MAJOR MAJORanger problems, and my sister got it the worst, of us three children of him, and she just at dinner yesterday hit me in the head and Iseriously felt like I was going to black out, because she hit a certain spot REALLY hard, and I remember my eyes tearing up, but I looked away and ate a piece of sourdough bread instead... But so I sometimes snap, but that never happens but with them... Even my posts about, like the last one, it really was not a big deal... So I pointed it towards multiple people, in my mind, when I wrote the end part.
ANYWAYS I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT MY ORIGINAL FREAKOUT BUT HERE IT IS.
You know my book "In The Shadows" which I have on Wattpad, and is my first public book?? Well...erm... I just saw—and I think this just happened because on Notes on my iPad there is always one already up, and I saw one full of text but the next second it was blank for some fuckin' reason—that there is no place, not on my iCloud, not on my iPod, not ANYWHERE!!, is the end part I have been working on for weeks (like since before Kieran's birthday in February) andI was just going to write in it...
Oh my gosh, I am making myself pissed again *starts to involuntarily laugh through the anger*, AHHH SORRY FOR THE LONG ASS POST, and shyaw... :D
Ciao peo-pahls!!!,
ALWAYS LAUGH THROUGH THHE PAIN, LIKE ME. Even if you are in some life threatening position or stuation, if you know you are going to die, or just so you never develop anger problems (if you are just mad like me), just do it. And if you are too scared... if you don't have a camera on you, and the life threatening _person/thing_ is not in your presence, (in the not like me, situation) just so they do not think you are enjoying it...(I have some experience I would not like to talk about, of my own... But maybe someday, I'll tell you... it is not as graphic as Imake it up to be sounding like.) at least SMILE. Because, you are not a bitch or whore or anything like that for being in your current situation. In lots of circumstances you are a wonderful, good person who has something horrible going on or happening to you. And I said "lots of circumstances" because in some cases, e person was actually a horrible bullying asshole that everyone from (I dunno) highschool?, would want them to die, but not really (just metaphorically speaking, or whatever..). And that may be why—ANY FUCKING WAY.
I try to end a post, look what happens to me...=^ *sigh* Another long ass paragraph...
I AM SUCH A BLOGGER. LIKE, DAYUM BROTHA...!
^^ Oh and I realize, at I called Halfschool by his first name, BUT WHO CARES, I CANT HELP IT, he's just so fuckin' CUTE AS F, and yuppeddidoodaa (-prolli da longest word I have ever made up, and ever will...-), btw, I think he likes me secretly, like Anaya suggested...cos um..... well.. I read that English men (OMG AM I REALLY SAYING THIS RIGHT NOW) 75% think they can flirt and know when a girl is flirting with them, but really like only 20-some% actually can... and um... heehee...(Halfschool thout**) yeaaaaahhhh... xD After all I said in this post, everyone must look at me differently and think that I am always thinking about gross shit, eh? Damn... NOT MY INTENTION, so fuck... heheheh..ok, that tiem I did. The word 'fuck' has a reputation.
.......Shall I die for today????
YESSSSSSSSSSSSS...!!!!
*problem with loading* *crash* *secret hidden message is shown*
TheFearless1: Ooooh...! =D
Me: :/
LE MESSAGE: I have listened to this song for the past few days (Ok, IN MY MIND after looking up the lyrics... *rolls eyes*) when I wake up, and seriously, it starts your day to a great start, and then I think about it when I go to bed (go to sleep) and no matter the crap of the other sequences of the day, I CAN ALWAYS REMEMBER TO SMILE AND LAUGH AT MY STUPID, UNLOVED SELF, AFTERWARDS!!! ^O^
So yeah, ummm.... Play this video, and have a great day, everyone!!! [I hope I find a good video, now that I just said this all... O_O][FYI: Picture on post is sloppy and kind of quirky versions of mah handwritin', and it was from on this new app I found that is for notes..but I just like to write on the screen, my handwriting... hahah... MUAHAHAHAHAHAAA *booming laughter, like thunder and lightning*... Okay, *pippy voice* just kidding! :DD I was listening to songs when I wrote it so yuppers and erm, yeah.... -_- some is awkward because it was a sample they now deleted automatically, and I just thought of what I really wanted to say to someone.... heh. IF you can read it. *giggling laughter*],
Nom~ •••
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