Will anyone believe this? Gosh damn... I really cannot believe that he said this, it's so sweet of him. Heehee...
My ex-boyfriend just private messaged me at the PSF (if you can recall, he was my only ever existent boyfriend, and we literally broke up and got back together so many times that I could not handle it, so I broke up with him 1 last time, and he never read or replied, at least, to the message, so I PMed him this January I think it was, to truce and maybe become friends, or more better aquintances {'cos seriously, just like Koichi in "In Your Arms Tonight" [off topic**], I used to want to just watch him bleed SOMETIMES!!! Grr... ).
Well now I kind of... REWI PLEASE DON'T HATE ME !!! ...think I like him..again.
Heh....haha....?
IT IS JUST THIS PROBLEM I HAVE WITH WANTING GUYS WHO I WILL NEVER HAVE A CHANCE WITH !! As said on my Introduction here on Blogger. Heh.
But YEAH!! So uhm... Yup! I think that I will just have to keep it forever, becuase his signiture on his profile says he will be leaving us there for... forever...
God damn...
I guess that makes him even more hot to me... at least in terms of how my frigging mind works (I just LOVE you, brain!!!). Hah...hahahah..?
Oh and!~ He said he just came on "to say happy birthday to Naomi." (My name, btw.) O M GGGGGGGGGG !!!!!!!!!!!!
At least that's ONE guy who cares about me... [Shoving in the face of/pointing at who doesn not care but I care for~]KIERAN!!
Anyhoozals, I kiss all of you got guys reading is, especially if you are Russian or German, or the only guy (except Kieran) that's British Ihave ever thought was attractive (his voice, actually**), Tom Chaplin. Heheheheheeehhh...
btw, I said "dream boy" because I literally had a SO REALISTIC DREAM that I met with Ronnie/Ronald (my ex's name) [around Kieran's birthday in real-time], and in it I remember right at the end, my sister was sitting on the arm rest on the coach in his house (or his parents', whatever), and I was sitting next to her actually correctly on the couch, and he was on the opposite side of the couch, and I remember in the dream I for some reason thought in my mind this: "if my sister wasn't here right now, even if his mom is standing right here, I would totally makeout with Ronnie... He is so hot..." And I also would not look directly at him, but once, and his hair was a light brown (like, Germans, right?) which was weird...cos he is Polish-Russian... but OH WAIT!!, I think his eyes were blue too, and for sure his skin was pale, and I remember I thought [in my actual mind after I woke up]: "His nose was really thin, and his face was yet it wasn't... Ne really looked like a model, he looked so fricking perfect!!" And what was weird, is (I'll try saying the whole thing later on a different post) he wouldn't stop just looking at me in deep thought it seemed, and so I was embarassed to look at him... And you knowhow some guys put their hand on a girls upper legwhen ey're dating or something?Well obviously we were NOT dating (this was kind of in the future, like I was fifteen and it was in the beginning of the year like it was in real life for me, so he was sixteen still... which he turns this year), but yeah, he either had his hand under my leg and I was frozen sitting there (as in: not moving ; not being actually frozen), with his touch and he just kept it there, or else it was the top of his foot, you know how some people sit with their leg crossedudner their butt or whatever? Yeah that...
Well then, when I woke up, I felt htere under my leg. and realized it was a blanket... hahaha...
But I could still feel his touch, even hours later after I awoke...
And in the beginning of the dream (I'll say the rest on alater post, like I said still), I was told he wanted to meet ME, so.... yeah. But um........... yeah–never mind...
So, this may make me sound more like a creeper, but I asked God (read one of my VERY OLD posts on "Seaglass Pirateship" my blog, and youwill get how I work, bro**) if I could see what Kieran looks like, you know so I could see if he was like seven or twenty (at the time I did not know he was fourteen, older than me by like two weeks?), and yeah...JUST TO SEE IF HE WAS ATTRACTIVE OR IF I COULD GET OVER HIM, ever, you know? (I am saying that WAY TOO MUCH, frigging A!)
Well, and I also put in there a little twist (I lay my life on the line a lot. It's stupid maybe, but it's just a bad habbit I have...), that was basically: If I don't see a guy that is a 'main character' in a soon dream, then I'll know I won't have a future with him/halfschool. Deal?
Now yeah, it is pretty funneh cause Kieran is ATHIEST, but erm... yeah.
Oh! I just recently had somethin' like that with Buddha...!!! He is so friggin happy, gosh... But yeah! It was pretty cool. I think it wasthe day before my birthday, too... hm.
WELL MAN? Don't cheat on your girlfriend if you are my future guy, and... that's even for Kieran!! (Even though he dislikes meh.)
On yeah, and who knows? Maybe that is what Ronnie looks like in RL, or maybe it is Halfschool, or maybe someone I don't know yet... His mom in the dream said: I am so thankful we put up those fake pictures that were supposedly Ronald. I wouldn't have wanted that girl to have really known what he looks like, before now...
She was talking about me as "that stupid girl" cos she glanced at me when she said those words... hmph.
#SluttyActionsOfMoi
It's our little secret[, future love]•
My ex-boyfriend just private messaged me at the PSF (if you can recall, he was my only ever existent boyfriend, and we literally broke up and got back together so many times that I could not handle it, so I broke up with him 1 last time, and he never read or replied, at least, to the message, so I PMed him this January I think it was, to truce and maybe become friends, or more better aquintances {'cos seriously, just like Koichi in "In Your Arms Tonight" [off topic**], I used to want to just watch him bleed SOMETIMES!!! Grr... ).
Well now I kind of... REWI PLEASE DON'T HATE ME !!! ...think I like him..again.
Heh....haha....?
IT IS JUST THIS PROBLEM I HAVE WITH WANTING GUYS WHO I WILL NEVER HAVE A CHANCE WITH !! As said on my Introduction here on Blogger. Heh.
But YEAH!! So uhm... Yup! I think that I will just have to keep it forever, becuase his signiture on his profile says he will be leaving us there for... forever...
God damn...
I guess that makes him even more hot to me... at least in terms of how my frigging mind works (I just LOVE you, brain!!!). Hah...hahahah..?
Oh and!~ He said he just came on "to say happy birthday to Naomi." (My name, btw.) O M GGGGGGGGGG !!!!!!!!!!!!
At least that's ONE guy who cares about me... [Shoving in the face of/pointing at who doesn not care but I care for~]KIERAN!!
Anyhoozals, I kiss all of you got guys reading is, especially if you are Russian or German, or the only guy (except Kieran) that's British Ihave ever thought was attractive (his voice, actually**), Tom Chaplin. Heheheheheeehhh...
btw, I said "dream boy" because I literally had a SO REALISTIC DREAM that I met with Ronnie/Ronald (my ex's name) [around Kieran's birthday in real-time], and in it I remember right at the end, my sister was sitting on the arm rest on the coach in his house (or his parents', whatever), and I was sitting next to her actually correctly on the couch, and he was on the opposite side of the couch, and I remember in the dream I for some reason thought in my mind this: "if my sister wasn't here right now, even if his mom is standing right here, I would totally makeout with Ronnie... He is so hot..." And I also would not look directly at him, but once, and his hair was a light brown (like, Germans, right?) which was weird...cos he is Polish-Russian... but OH WAIT!!, I think his eyes were blue too, and for sure his skin was pale, and I remember I thought [in my actual mind after I woke up]: "His nose was really thin, and his face was yet it wasn't... Ne really looked like a model, he looked so fricking perfect!!" And what was weird, is (I'll try saying the whole thing later on a different post) he wouldn't stop just looking at me in deep thought it seemed, and so I was embarassed to look at him... And you knowhow some guys put their hand on a girls upper legwhen ey're dating or something?Well obviously we were NOT dating (this was kind of in the future, like I was fifteen and it was in the beginning of the year like it was in real life for me, so he was sixteen still... which he turns this year), but yeah, he either had his hand under my leg and I was frozen sitting there (as in: not moving ; not being actually frozen), with his touch and he just kept it there, or else it was the top of his foot, you know how some people sit with their leg crossedudner their butt or whatever? Yeah that...
Well then, when I woke up, I felt htere under my leg. and realized it was a blanket... hahaha...
But I could still feel his touch, even hours later after I awoke...
And in the beginning of the dream (I'll say the rest on alater post, like I said still), I was told he wanted to meet ME, so.... yeah. But um........... yeah–never mind...
So, this may make me sound more like a creeper, but I asked God (read one of my VERY OLD posts on "Seaglass Pirateship" my blog, and youwill get how I work, bro**) if I could see what Kieran looks like, you know so I could see if he was like seven or twenty (at the time I did not know he was fourteen, older than me by like two weeks?), and yeah...JUST TO SEE IF HE WAS ATTRACTIVE OR IF I COULD GET OVER HIM, ever, you know? (I am saying that WAY TOO MUCH, frigging A!)
Well, and I also put in there a little twist (I lay my life on the line a lot. It's stupid maybe, but it's just a bad habbit I have...), that was basically: If I don't see a guy that is a 'main character' in a soon dream, then I'll know I won't have a future with him/halfschool. Deal?
Now yeah, it is pretty funneh cause Kieran is ATHIEST, but erm... yeah.
Oh! I just recently had somethin' like that with Buddha...!!! He is so friggin happy, gosh... But yeah! It was pretty cool. I think it wasthe day before my birthday, too... hm.
WELL MAN? Don't cheat on your girlfriend if you are my future guy, and... that's even for Kieran!! (Even though he dislikes meh.)
On yeah, and who knows? Maybe that is what Ronnie looks like in RL, or maybe it is Halfschool, or maybe someone I don't know yet... His mom in the dream said: I am so thankful we put up those fake pictures that were supposedly Ronald. I wouldn't have wanted that girl to have really known what he looks like, before now...
She was talking about me as "that stupid girl" cos she glanced at me when she said those words... hmph.
#SluttyActionsOfMoi
It's our little secret[, future love]•
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