God, I can't believe I slept to four in the afternoon...
Well whatever...
My life is not the worst of everyone's, but I'm sorry. If you want my advice, I can't help you.
I have not been out-there since...forever. So, I know nothing you want of me.
Why do I ask for abuse? ...
Because everyone around me has had it, and Iwant to be able to understand them, so they do not always say: "YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!"
...
It could be said, "out of kindness," but that would mean I am a fucked up mentally retarded idiotic..... No, it's just me.
...
Don't you ever wish that nobody ever killed themselves or others... Or hurt anyone... Or no one PURPOSEFULLY hurt you.... Or lied...
We need a new planet, we need a new life, we need a new place to, we need to just get away from _here_...
But in the end, we die, it does not happen.... Or if you DO leave... who you are escaping from will always find you.
That's how it's been with my dad. Hiding did not work...
...
I remember when I first ended the Royal Diaries Anastasia Romanov The Last Grand Duchess (...), I read the back of the book, where it was the real pictures of the family, and the real story of them...
I truly am no emotional person, as I've said many times in the past, and he only book I have ever cried from took place in the 1880's I believe, and ended in the mid 1920's, so around the same time of the deaths... The only book is titled, The River Between Us, and I recommend no one read it because even just sang the title my eyes just teared up, oddly...
Well, I as always held back the tears and the pain I felt when I read those words of their life's end together...
And I for a long time after, then included, wanted so badly to do ANYTHING I could possibly do to somehow get the DNA of the Tsar Nicholas II's family and assasinate the current Russian government, and make the Romanov dynesty go on... I can't put to words the compassion Ihad, or the hate I had, or the love I felt...
Why did that have to happen to them? They didn't deserve it! Maybe you say "no one deserves it." But really, it was SICKENING what they had done to that family, the servants, even the animals of them...
Alexandra, Nicholas, Alexei, Anastasia, Tatiana, Olga, Maria,..........
And after shooting them repeatedly, seeming until satisfied, they put their bodies in the basement and left the guards, ALIVE, who knew them so well and were friends with the royal family, lay down there with them...
There were also stories of how Marie hadn't been dead, and sometimes they would hear her wake and she'd be screaming...
...
Later, very later, the grave in the woods of Yekaterinburg were found and the current government had them hide it...
There were two bodies missing, and one of them the next in line to the throne, Alexei...
...
Later after, there was the remains of a fire, and also the evidence of the Russian Orthadox church having two bodies be cremated...during that time.
...
None of the bodies in the grave with the others, had Mashka's destinct gap in her front teeth... And no one was by the age of the Tsar's son...
In the remains of a fire, the cheap way the asassinators tried to cremate them, were the Tsarevitch, and the unknown either Anastasia or Maria. But I believe it was Marie, not Anastasia... Her teeth were proof, but to this day from allI know, it is still a scientific mystery...
...
All of their bodies were covered in acid meant for no DNA to be gotten... Well, even though no system for it EXISTED in the year 1918, I suppose...
...
I still wish, just for even the smallest thing... That I could have prevented that assasination.
But who am I kidding? And why would I still hope for it, though there is NO possible way...?
Now, I know.
But it is still kind of a secret•
Well whatever...
My life is not the worst of everyone's, but I'm sorry. If you want my advice, I can't help you.
I have not been out-there since...forever. So, I know nothing you want of me.
Why do I ask for abuse? ...
Because everyone around me has had it, and Iwant to be able to understand them, so they do not always say: "YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!"
...
It could be said, "out of kindness," but that would mean I am a fucked up mentally retarded idiotic..... No, it's just me.
...
Don't you ever wish that nobody ever killed themselves or others... Or hurt anyone... Or no one PURPOSEFULLY hurt you.... Or lied...
We need a new planet, we need a new life, we need a new place to, we need to just get away from _here_...
But in the end, we die, it does not happen.... Or if you DO leave... who you are escaping from will always find you.
That's how it's been with my dad. Hiding did not work...
...
I remember when I first ended the Royal Diaries Anastasia Romanov The Last Grand Duchess (...), I read the back of the book, where it was the real pictures of the family, and the real story of them...
I truly am no emotional person, as I've said many times in the past, and he only book I have ever cried from took place in the 1880's I believe, and ended in the mid 1920's, so around the same time of the deaths... The only book is titled, The River Between Us, and I recommend no one read it because even just sang the title my eyes just teared up, oddly...
Well, I as always held back the tears and the pain I felt when I read those words of their life's end together...
And I for a long time after, then included, wanted so badly to do ANYTHING I could possibly do to somehow get the DNA of the Tsar Nicholas II's family and assasinate the current Russian government, and make the Romanov dynesty go on... I can't put to words the compassion Ihad, or the hate I had, or the love I felt...
Why did that have to happen to them? They didn't deserve it! Maybe you say "no one deserves it." But really, it was SICKENING what they had done to that family, the servants, even the animals of them...
Alexandra, Nicholas, Alexei, Anastasia, Tatiana, Olga, Maria,..........
And after shooting them repeatedly, seeming until satisfied, they put their bodies in the basement and left the guards, ALIVE, who knew them so well and were friends with the royal family, lay down there with them...
There were also stories of how Marie hadn't been dead, and sometimes they would hear her wake and she'd be screaming...
...
Later, very later, the grave in the woods of Yekaterinburg were found and the current government had them hide it...
There were two bodies missing, and one of them the next in line to the throne, Alexei...
...
Later after, there was the remains of a fire, and also the evidence of the Russian Orthadox church having two bodies be cremated...during that time.
...
None of the bodies in the grave with the others, had Mashka's destinct gap in her front teeth... And no one was by the age of the Tsar's son...
In the remains of a fire, the cheap way the asassinators tried to cremate them, were the Tsarevitch, and the unknown either Anastasia or Maria. But I believe it was Marie, not Anastasia... Her teeth were proof, but to this day from allI know, it is still a scientific mystery...
...
All of their bodies were covered in acid meant for no DNA to be gotten... Well, even though no system for it EXISTED in the year 1918, I suppose...
...
I still wish, just for even the smallest thing... That I could have prevented that assasination.
But who am I kidding? And why would I still hope for it, though there is NO possible way...?
Now, I know.
But it is still kind of a secret•
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